I was looking at my wedding album the other day and thinking back to that day. I was 19 years old. If I had it to do all over, I wouldnt get married till I was 30. back then it was like you went from living with your parents to living with your husband. You never had any time to get to know "you."
My wedding was "open Church", which meant we didnt send out invitations, anyone could come. And about 300 people did come so it was a nice wedding. We had cake and punch in the Church basement and then my parents had a party later at their house. By then I was on my way to my "honeymoon." When I see all the plans and money that goes into weddings now Im truly astounded.
The day I got married I scrubbed the floor in the rec room, since they were having a party that night. Can you imagine? I felt like Cinderella....I never did much around the house growing up and then on my big day I had to scrub the floor!! I guess my Dad figured it would keep me out of trouble!
When I got my gown on and the photographer came to the house my Mother got all misty eyed. But as soon as I got that gown on I was instantly hungry! I had to have a baloney sandwich with cheese and ketchup! My Mom was so upset that I would get ketchup on my gown. So they put a towel over me.....the photographer said I was the only bride he ever seen eating a baloney sandwich before her wedding. He of course had to snap a picture of it and put it in the album.
When I look at the the pictures I think how young I was. I didnt know how to do anything...I couldnt boil water! I didnt know how to wash clothes and I never knew whether to dust first or run the sweeper first. I didnt even make my own bed at home....I did enjoy learning to cook and have become very good at it. I know now to dust first..(lol), then run the sweeper. I can make my bed but sometimes I just dont. And washing clothes is something you learn by trial and error. I never really ironed, I still dont. If it wrinkles I throw it away! ( honest!)
I guess I learned all I wanted to learn. My Motherinlaw thought I was very spoiled, and when I think of it, I guess I was. But I wouldnt change any of it. It has made me what I am today.
My best friend is getting married and she called me last night and ask me to be in the wedding. She has been divorced for 20 years so this is a big step for her. I am very happy for her. She ask me if I thought she was crazy for getting married. I said no, at least your too old to be pregnant. ;)) Some people just need to be married. I dont think I am one of them. I dont want to care if he has clean clothes, or if hes hungry, or if hes happy, or if he is bored. I just like things the way they are. Maybe because my marriage wasnt all that happy, and I dont care to try it again. I have lots of men friends and I adore them...have a ball with them. But I like to go home alone.
What about you? Do you think you would like living alone ?( well, I do have my Mother, but you know what I mean.) Would you be lonely for a partner? Someone to share with? Someday I will tell you why I am not lonely. And it has nothing to do with all the people around me.