Saturday, October 06, 2007

Sorry.....


This is Ed and I at Damons ( after the EKG) I was feeling no pain and trying to forget about the EKG for awhile. Ed is taking chemo and his coloring is not very good right now. Ed doesnt smile much, but then he never did smile much, but hes a good guy.
This is a guy we met, who Janice was trying to get me to give my phone number to.....I said...No, I have enough problems right now, but he was very nice and he knew my Father, which suprised us both. My brother told me this guy hit the lottery for a few million some years back. Even if I had known..it wouldnt have made any difference......Ive got enough on my plate right now.
This was a party in the next room, I wondered over to get a picture because they were from Intercourse, Pennsylvania!!!!! They were also having a grand time. I almost sat down and joined them!
This is Janice, Ed and I. I dont think Ed was having a good time but he goes to keep track of Janice and I!!!!! lol


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I apologize for not updating sooner. I just found out yesterday my tests will be on Wednesday morning( Oct 10). I will have stress test, echo, and carrotted (sp) done all in one morning. Ill be glad to get them all over with but I know I will be so nervous. I am the absolute worse person in the world to take these tests. My heart will be beating 100 miles an hour before I ever get in the building. They said to wear comfortable clothes. I wonder if I can just go in my pajamas???? ;)) No one is allowed to go with me because they cant be in the testing area. Geeze...I wont even have any of my friends there. I know what your thinking, and you are so right, I am the biggest baby. I just want to live a long healthy life and smoke cigarettes and drink vodka and eat all kinds of fatty foods and never exercise, is that too much to ask? lol. I know one thing..I will be quitting smoking....thats a promise.




My Doctor is from Brazil. He is supposed to be very good. I know one thing....hes cute! His hair is kinda long and he has one of those sexy dark complexions. While he was examining me I noticed he is starting to lose some hair on the top of his head. I just wanted to tell him I still think he is very good looking even if his hair is thinning....lol. I hope they dont give me anything to make me dopey because then I may just tell him! When the girl came in to give me the EKG and she lifted my top, and Janice was sitting there and she said..." oh you slut! You wore your black lacy bra for Dr S!!!....I said " I just want to look nice!" We had a laugh out of that, and believe me, I needed every laugh I could get that day.


So I probably will not be updating till after Wednesday. I thank you all for your concern, I really do appreciate it...please continue to keep me in your prayers because they mean so much to me. I just hope I can get through this without making a total idiot out of myself...I tend to cry very easy when Im scared. Thank you all for your support......I will be in touch!!! I promise!

20 comments:

Akelamalu said...

You look to be having a great time there with Janice and Ed (even if he isn't smiling!).

Aw honey don't be scared, I'm sure all the tests will be fine. I'll be thinking of you on Wednesday and sending Reiki to you. xx

Louisiana said...

number 1.
girls can cry. it's our perrogative. God gave us tear ducts and emotions for a reason. they are a part of emotions. it's alright to cry.

number 2.
sorry, you are not the world's biggest baby. i am. it's my crown and i will not share with you. you my dear girl, have gone through much more and came out better than you ever went in twice fold. so no, you don't qualify. i know you are used to being in the top running and it's great for you deserve it but not this time. you are not in the running.

number 3.
anyone, and everyone would be stress over stress tests..and they take that into consideration in the results. they know..trust me, they know..

number 4.
wear your black lacey bra and throw on some sexy panties as well. put on make up and do your hair. wear delicious smelling perfume and throw on some nice clothe. for the doc and you as well. you will feel sexy and pretty as you are of course and it will help to remind you, you are alive and will be tomorrow and the day after and the one after that. you are alive not just breathing but alive and living a fantastic life that is not going anywhere.

number 5.
tell the doc he is cute. you like his accent. not to worry about his hair loss and anything else you want. don't we all like to hear nice, flattering things? he is no different. whatever the age, whatever the relationship status, make his day. he will have a smile on his heart and you will feel awesome. so don't worry what you might say. just say it and enjoy.

i'm sorry you are needing these tests at all. but they will all turn alright. remember our minds are our biggest possession. think as if nothing is wrong and nothing is wrong. all is well. you are healthy. this is just an exercise...

have fun, keep on going out. enjoy your friends, flirt, keep on smiling and showing the world the best dimples on earth. give your phone number out. let some cute guy take you out and show you a good time or at least buy you dinner. keep on living. don't let your test take over before they really take over and you get lost in worry.

keep on living and have all this be the sideline.

i love you.

LJ said...

Oh no need to be sorry dear!
You know your smile is big enough for you AND Ed. :D
Lots of hugs and prayers coming your way doll.

L said...

One of the things that I love about you Catch is that when ever you post pics of yourself you are always having a good time where ever you go. ;)


You will be in my prayers.

Ol' Lady said...

You are in my thoughts & prayers...take care

Lo Kelween said...

my my my...Mr. Ed doesn't look happy at all! is he ok? well, you both in the picture are like "compare and contrast"...i hope he is ok.

ehm, i like dark skin...girl too! :)

Anonymous said...

You'll be in my thoughts all day on the 10th. Wear your pajamas if you want to! I won't wish you good luck, because you don't need it, but I will wish you courage!

Rick Rockhill said...

what a great set of photos! I feel like I was there with you. by the way, mean to tell you, you have the most wonderful smile.

Big Pissy said...

Catch~thanks for sharing these pictures....they're great! Poor Ed...he looks like he wishes he was anywhere but there! LOL

As for the testing...I don't blame you a bit for being nervous.

I'll be thinking of you and hoping for the best! :)

{{{hugs}}}

~Pissy

Neoma said...

It is very hard to keep a stiff upper lip and stay strong when there is so much unknown out there when you are having tests done. And none of them are all that much fun, so take some tissues and sniffle if you want to......I am sure it won't be the first time they saw red eyes. Shoot I think I was wiping mine on my sleeve, (I forgot the tissues.) haha

Good luck and try to relax. Yeh I know, well I said try.

Will be thinking about you on the 1oth.......hoping all goes well.

Tug said...

Many hugs, many prayers my friend...hang in there - things always have a way of working out! Don't forget to breathe...

Michelle said...

loved the pics - you're always having such fun :) Will be thinking of you Wed and praying for calm for you as you go through your testing - and of course praying for good results from all the tests!

Anonymous said...

how fun to see you in the pics. good luck with everything! it sucks to not have our vices and eat that proverbial cake, too! you're strong and wise...you'll be fine.

rel said...

Catch,
Slow deep breaths, stay calm and take it as it comes. I'll keep my fingers crossed for you!
God bless.
rel

Bazza said...

Hang on in there Catch, me and wifey are thinking about you.

eZ said...

hey catch
still holding you in my thoughts and prayers
love the pics-was this your last horah? lol
ALL the best with the no smoking!!
yeah you!!
you can do it girl!

Anonymous said...

You go in there with your black bra on and keep your head held high as I know you can get through this..we're all keeping you in our thought and prayers...hang in there girlie!

Unknown said...

I'm glad you took time to have some fun. It's no fun to have testing done. Try to stay positive! We are all behind you!

Anonymous said...

Catch,
You always look like you are having so much FUN!! I could tell Ed was having fun by the look in his eyes. :)
I will be thinking of you Wed and praying for peace for you as you go through your testing. Sending prayers and good thougts your way!
Crossing my fingers everything goes well with your tests!

HUGS,

Unknown said...

Good luck to you. Let us know how well you are doing and how you will quit smoking after the doc tells you too.

We all send you love