Good morning ~ even though it is almost 5 pm!! I came home this morning at 8am , was gonna do my post but I couldnt stay awake ~ so put that cute little sign on and went to bed! Now I am up trying to figure out what to fix for dinner.
When I went to Les and Audreys last night I hadnt seen Les for a couple weeks b/c he was in the hospital. He has lost more weight and is rapidly deteriorating. I sent Audrey to bed, she looked exhausted and I listened for Les all night because I knew he was not going to let me know when he had to get up!! And he didnt ~ lol ~ and he was a little short tempered, which I totally understand, but I think he had a halfway decent night~ he got up this morning at 6am and ate his breakfast. he always thanks me for everything I do for him ~ which I know he appreciates and I appreciate the thanks..even though if they scream at me or yell at me ~ I understand that they are full of anger and fear. Anger b/c they have no control over this illness and fear b/c they dont know what is ahead. Les was pretty much a mans man, he had control over his domain ( just like my Dad), he and Audrey had a happy marriage, he was a good family man and an excellant Father. I think its very difficult to give up the reins on a situation like that ~ he is used to being the " protecter"..~ he is used to taking care of the family and being the one everyone goes to when they have a problem...but now he knows he is not going to be there much longer ~ sooner or later he will turn it all over to God ~ and then he will get some peace. He has a lot on his mind right now though..but he will deal with it.
When I woke up this afternoon my buddy Gaige was in bed with me...lol....I looked over at him and he was just smiling!!! lol..he said " Come on Grammie ~ get up!" I didnt even hear him get in bed with me.
I am going to go see Pacey Jo and Zack ~ Leslie ( my DIL) told me this morning that Pacey Jo didnt sleep good last night unless you held her!!!! Id say thats one smart little girl!!!!! ( wink)